Everyday Guesses

Today is this little man's 8 month birthday! :) David and I said this morning that we never thought we'd make it this far, and in response Ollie just smiled and laughed at us. I keep thinking back to this time last year and how I couldn't even wrap my head around what it was going to mean to have a child.  And now that he's here I just can't imagine life without him. Age : 8 months Height: 26" + Weight: 20 pounds Clothes: 6-12 months, depending on the brands.  For the most part he's in 12 month onesies and 9 month pants (if he's even wearing pants). Milestones: Army crawl, Sitting up unassisted, Saying "mama" and "dada", Finally growing hair on his bald spot Food: Breast feeding 5-6 times a day with solids at least once and usually 2 times throughout the day. Squash, Bananas, Peanut Butter Sleep: Waking up 1-2 times at night and still nursing back to sleep at the first wake up.

Here is something I've really struggled with since returning to work as a Renal Dietitian after the birth of my son: work resentment. I've found that a lot of articles I've come across use the term "mom guilt," but I don't think that term adequately describes what I'm struggling with. Mom guilt is feeling like you're failing to love and nurture your family because you're giving that time and energy to your career instead. I think I'd be feeling more of this if I loved the work I was doing.  Work resentment, on the other hand, is feeling like you're giving time and energy to your career that you'd rather be giving to your family.  See the difference? I feel like I'm constantly fighting a losing battle.  I should be doing my work--rounding on patients, doing assessments, charting progress notes-- but instead I'm thinking about my baby. It's not because I'm worried about him, I love our daycare and know that he is well