Everyday Guesses

AHHH! 2 weeks until I find out about internships and 5 weeks until I'm completely finished with classes!!! Everything has kind of come in to perspective as graduation and internships get closer and I'm just trying to appreciate everything I have and everything I've worked for. I think in the past couple months I was getting a little too caught up in the things I wasn't doing and the things I didn't have and it was making me feel like I was losing control. Now, I feel better and am just really anxious and excited to find out what my future's going to be. These 5 weeks cannot go fast enough!

Everything seems to be going very smoothly for the time being. I'm feeling a little on edge, but I think that's just because of the number of things I have to keep straight all at once. I got a call from Cornell yesterday and set up a phone interview for Monday, which is the last step in applying to their internship. Then all my other applications are due Wednesday, so I'm going to spend this Saturday working on them---and probably some of Sunday too, even though it is the Super Bowl. After that my future is out of my hands until April 5th. I'm super excited for the days, weeks, and months ahead of me. I've seen such a change in myself this year compared to years past. These days it seems that even when everything is hectic it's never too much. The only thing I'm responsible for is myself, and lets face it, that's a pretty easy thing to be responsible for. My decisions effect my future, and mine alone and that makes it much easier to be comfort...

I graduate at the end of this semester!!!! That's crazy! I'm really excited for it, but at the same time a little nervous. I know I will breathe a sigh of relief once April roles around and I find out if I have an internship to go to after graduation, but for the most part I'm totally excited to be finished with undergrad! 4 years totally flew! Thus far the semester is off to a good start. No terrible class work so far, and the classes seem like they'll stay pretty manageable. Work is really good too...it was a pretty hectic week cause not everyone was showing up, but it's so nice to have my caf family back! They're fantastic support and I love being back with everyone. In other news, my boy is still around for another month or so, which I'm really happy about. Christine and I hung out today, and we were talking about what was going on in our lives and she's convinced that I like him more than I'm letting on. She's probably right, but I think...

Today I have a 3-5 page paper to write...I have about 1/4 of a page written and a pretty solid direction , but I can't bring myself to write it. Instead I'm watching Gilmore Girls and surfing the internet. Haha. Lately, life has been pretty interesting. Classes started, work started, all the roommates have moved in, and as usual drama surrounds it all--but it's nothing too unbearable. I'm just looking forward to getting through this year and seeing where my life takes me. Now I suppose I should try and get atleast one page of this paper written before I go an procrastinate more by taking a shower and then watching One Tree Hill. :)

I finally feel like I'm at a stable point right now in life. It's spring break and I am about to go to California for the very first time to see a friend I haven't seen in over a year! I could not be more excited about it...and on top of it, this will be my first plane ride since about 2006. I love plane rides--take offs and landings are my favorite--and just that freedom you have when you're in the airport getting ready to go on an adventure, not completely knowing where it's going to take you, but knowing that your destination is where you want to be. I love it and can't wait to be in the airport, boarding my plane, taking off, being in the air, and landing...and then doing the whole thing all over again 5 days later!! I'm really starting to like my independence a lot. I was in a relationship for so long that I didn't know what independence even was. I like being able to do what I want, when I want, how I want without having to worry about how som...

Ugh! I have a organic chemistry test tomorrow, and I have all day to study for it. The problem is that I don't want to. I want to do well on it, so I'm really worried about WHAT to study, but I have really bad problems when it comes to focusing. Luckily my lab partner and I met up at 9am to study a little in the library, and did that for about an hour and a half...but now I'm back in my room and there are too many distractions. YUCK!  What really sucks is that the test is supposed to be on Monday, but since I won't be there Monday I have to take it tomorrow. Once I get it over with I'll be fine...it's just getting from this point to that point. Eventually I'll either go back to the library to study, or get on a study kick and not get distracted (which does happen every so often). Maybe I'll start by working on the lab stuff that's due for tomorrow and from there I'll do some really good studying. Anyway, I know this was a pointless ...